. ... .. .. . .. ... .. .. ... . . ... ... ..... . ... .. ... .. . . ..This was one of those times when I wondered if I shouldn't do this more often. Because.... Apologies are vital to life. I know that now. I knew it before... they're just hard to humbly apply to life, aren't they? Still, vital they are.
It was a rough evening, last night. Partially. It was mostly me. I lost it. I tried really, really hard not to to yell. But I did. And it was ugly.
My poor kids.
After a few more minutes of really trying to keep it all together and now, here comes the part where I plant kisses and pray prayers with my littles as they are snuggled into bed.
I knew I HAD to apologize. And rightly so. With tear-stained and quavering voice. I ask for their forgiveness and explain just how ugly that was of Mommy, to be!!
This is the muffled responses I hear - from blankets pulled too close to chin.
"Mom, we still love you." (whispered my five year old, Aubrey)
My six year old son, Caleb, rolls over to the edge of his bunk bed and says...
"Mom, down in your heart... God still loves you! and You're still beautiful".
((tears....pouring as hard the rain outside!))
Let's just say - as of this morning!! Quite honestly... while it was still raining to beat the band... I swear I saw the SON shining full and bright. Life is good! Renewed and afresh!!
The mercies of the Lord.... they are new every morning! Hallelujah!!
In fact. For a further glimpse into just how so? This morning: we were pushing for time just a bit ... the kids needed to brush their teeth and quite frankly we needed to HURRY!! (in order to get my son on the bus on time)... and I hear them upstairs all sing-songy and I'm feeling the "pressure" - as I mount the top steps, keeping my mouth shut... I really hear what they're saying and then, actually see them...
All three of my children are sitting on the side of the bed, arm-in-arm, swaying back and forth in unison as they sing...
So, I joined them!!
And, guess what? We actually made it to school on time... (at least, the bus!!)
Now, I'm off to making a big batch of Chocolate Chip Cookies for upon their arrival home from school. :)
Because after all...
Aren't cookies also vital to life?